Ever since I failed at school and doing it all over again this freaking Astory started. From that moment on everything changed. Doing my absolute best I could in order to get good grades and with that praise, recognition and love. With this life lesson I learned to „swim“. To swim has been my main…
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Forced activity
Lately a lot of stuff is going on in my mind as I get more energy again. and it really seems like that sometimes I’m forcing myself too much to “do things”. Instead of giving my brain and myself time to find inspiration, I always feel pressured that I have to “deliver / be active”.…
Read MoreDepression and anxiety – two months later
2020 – rewind Wow, the past few months went quick. That it’s already 2021 still feels surreal. What a year 2020 has been, huh? To me it’s been a wild one. One that forced me to face depression and everything that comes along with it. But on the other hand I also found my love…
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Why do I feel so lonely? I feel detached. The weird feel about not being able to enjoy what others seem to do. Why does it feel so wrong that others drink, and I don’t? Why can’t I eat without thinking whether it’s healthy or not? If my allergies might react or not? How many…
Read MoreBeing present!
In the past week happened to be quite often that I felt absolutely worthless. And a massive lack of energy which quite sucks if you are used to traveling / activity / etc. the way I used to be. Ended up, that instead of drawing or building things, I did nothing and instead finished watching…
Read MoreSpare time, the importance of hobbies!
I figured it would make sense to start writing with this topic, as I have a few insights I want to share on this blog in the lineup. So, let’s go back to my first day in psychiatric – end of august. I got there obviously coming from a very different place in life, where…
Read MoreCan you drink too much water?
I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been slightly overwhelmed recently with the messages, comments and uplifting responses I got for opening up about my mental health. It took me 6+ hours to reply to every one of you and I whole heartedly appreciate the long (very personal) stories, insights, helpful tips and so much more every…
Read MoreDepression and anxiety
The past few months, or lets say years, have been really difficult. And thats the initial reason why I’ve been very quiet lately about what exactly is going on in my life. And since I didn’t use these platforms at all for a very long time I honestly don‘t know where to start. And I’m…
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